I don’t know what to do at this point, I wanted to live a simple life, I didn’t want tropical vacations, I didn’t want anything extravagant. I just wanted beans-and-rice, football/cricket matches, some anime/manga, literature, and some indie games, not many just like 2 or 3. But now this world won’t let me, I don’t have any complaints about what I have, I can make do with it, I have my food, I can read books, I can play some games but this world wants to take even that away. First an ed tech company took out a loan in name of merchant credit which made dad unable to finance anything then the bank deducted 250 dollars because and I quote “we miscalculated interest and charged the left over” bastard fuck you fuck you, I am leaving, if I take my own life then what will you take? NOTHING!!! You will have nothing to take then.
You would be playing right into their cards comrade, they want to make it hard, they want to make you envious. Extravagant vacations are for the same depressed people with slightly more money. This macho bs is grained into young people’s minds, like if you don’t have slaves at least for a week in a year you are … not human? Sure video games are fun but helping a person in need is much better. Go out, look into people’s eyes for once, you will see you aren’t alone like this. But you know about it! You admitted it to yourself that this world is not worth living! You don’t have a problem looking at yourself in the mirror like those bankers do. Try to make it better at least for those who will come after us and then it will finally start making sense.
Thank you so much, I appreciate your words so much hugs back i love you too comrade