I just realized this, but the placeholder model/image/whatever my brain has been using to represent myself has been fucking Blake Belladonna from RWBY.

…Why?

“Hmmm, yes, I think for my power fantasies where I enact my weird elaborate revenge plots against the fascists I’ll represent myself using the annoying liberal cat girl from the okayish 3D animated show produced by dudebros.”

Also apparently “blake belladonna ai” is one of the suggested search results from duckduckgo. Ew.

For those that don’t know, I don’t really have an “internal self portrait” for myself. Whenever my brain goes to to represent myself (as in my physical body) it’ll essentially pull “whatever” from the L2 data cache. It often changes.

Unless I’m purposefully imagining my physical self.

Idk maybe everyone does something similar, or maybe I’m some really “cishety” flavor of enby and one of my least favorite female characters is my gender transition goals lmfao.