Hiiiii

I came out to my dad!! Via email lmaoo. It went well!! Like really well.

I was surpised by his reaction. I was expecting much more hesitation. But nope. So now I can finally fucking relax about it, since now I am out to everyone that matters.

I do now feel very silly working myself up. I had a panic attack at the dnd session thinking about coming out to him. I feel like I judged him. I felt very paranoid about him. I know he absolutely has said transphobic things, but they feel like false memories now. I suppose however he has never been hateful towards trans people. Or maybe he its such a positive reaction because its me, and not someone else?

So while I accept that he accepts me, I still can’t get out of my head all the other things he has said. I have terrible memory, so ive begun writing notes on the things he says. Its such a jarring thing reading it. He honestly frightens me and disturbs me a bit. Makes me doubt his acceptance. I dont know who he is.

Oh well lmao. A convo with the pscyh to be had.

And also I am now fully, publicly, a women!!! So thats cool.

-Minty

  • AnxiousMiisha@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    4·
    3 days ago

    Mintyyyyyyy 💚
    Girl, I’m so happy for you! You’re so freaking brave, it’s admirable!

    You did something really scary and difficult today. Get some rest girl 🩷

  • gandalf_der_12te@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    10·
    4 days ago

    :D

    i never “formally” came out to my dad (or anyone else from my family) but seeing the grin on his face when he realized still makes me smile.

    • minty@aussie.zoneOPEnglish
      5·
      4 days ago

      Thats cute:)

      I was tempted to do that lmao but ofc for me coming out directly was ny only option

  • brookedSmile@lemmy.blahaj.zoneEnglish
    7·
    4 days ago

    Tell you the truth, lots of people says things that may be transphobic but arent meant that way. Or like people grow and change over time. I dont think you should dwell too much on the past. Perfect is the enemy of good

    Hell alot of trans people including me have internalized transphobia, thats part of what makes this journey so hard.

    The biggest most important lesson i learned is you expect people to react negatively because you yourself somewhere inside you reacts negatively to yourself. Think about thoughts of dysphoria, or just feeling like its not worth, too late, never be fem enough etc etc. These are all self hating thoughts that if you let linger will color your view about interacting with people.

    I wont lie and say anything is easy, or even safe. We cant predict who will be safe or not. We CAN love ourselves better so that we can change our mindset.

    Because if ive learned anything else, its that the vast majority of sane people dont give a fuck ❤️❤️❤️