You called?

I’m happy to go down with this Ship of Nighmares. Like Stink here, I am disgusted at the unavoidable blood sacrifices that make my way of life tick. I refuse to help an evil rose bloom, even if I live on the very same vine.

I will be singing praises and comforting my loved ones as this rampaging monster is brought down.

If Viktor Frankl can find solace and happiness in a Nazi concentration camp, I can manage to live what’s left of my life happily celebrating the end of this Evil Empire.

I feel like we’re in similar positions.

I’m thinking of putting minimal effort into finding a job, but not giving up. Then, finding ways to get out and connect with people more. Maybe a person I meet has a job, maybe I get a friend, maybe I get overwhelmed and go home early. But, I can’t keep trying the same stuff as usual, since it hasn’t really been working.

I’m in a similar position as OP, and I really appreciate what you wrote.

I tried to ‘escape’ by doing part time stuff and tried to start my own business, and it didn’t get off in time. Now, I have to go back, defeated, eventually desperate for a job, financially set back a year or two.

I know I’ve grown a lot as a person in the past 4 years, but I feel like I’m just getting older and going nowhere.

I left a position that I couldn’t take anymore. Got a part time thing to tide me over while I figure out what I want to do.

Time’s up, and my most realistic option is to go back to the meat grinder. If it’s any consolation, I found it most tolerable when I took the perspective of a fly-on-the-wall of this great Farce.

Shame, I have a different background.

Can’t do that without doxxing myself

If you ever need an engineer, take me with you.

Can I take legal action reasonably?

I did not list him as a reference.

Edit: Thanks for replying. I’m mostly just pissed that this asshole is still fucking with my life. Sure other things influenced my life, but without this man, I’d be $50k richer at minimum, have a better career, and wouldn’t have almost died in a car accident (totaling the best goddamn car I’ve ever owned).

Hahahaha! How about a charity auction gala?

I am the Holder of the Sacred Chalice of Rixx, Heir to the Holy Rings of… nevermind! Just get me Picard!

I always fear that my voice is annoying. I haven’t gotten much feedback on it.

But. A couple of people say I have a soothing radio voice, I hold onto that sometimes.

I feel a bit stuck looking for a job, and it’s hard to resist cultural programming to blame myself. I left a cushy MIC job because my moral compass couldn’t take it anymore. I tried part time employment, gig work, even starting my own business, but I’ve run out of time and money.

I have until February to find a job, which is a lot longer than most say when they’re out of time. I’m stuck in [Midwest Suburb], and am thinking of dropping everything to find a job in Chicago. Well, not thinking, feeling.

I feel like I’m being called to Chicago, but I’ve never been, and I’m only going on a short trip there sometime soon. I have been socially isolated for my whole life, and I’m looking for a hub of people that I can call my own. Maybe I can find that there, if I want to increase my chances for finding community. Everybody wants to feel like they belong, and maybe it’s futile to keep seeking it, when I could build it where I am, even if it isn’t ideal.

I’ve changed a lot in the past 8 years, and I still don’t know what I’m doing. I do know how to take single steps forward, and I think that’s all I need, but… it’s scary.

I might argue yes (in a way).

They are forms of expression ASMR using audio and visuals to form a unique experience. Maybe not a mukbang… not too familiar with that. I would clarify that ASMR may be a medium of artistic expression.

In a similar way, personifying animals in furry art can be a genre or medium, and I still wouldn’t call MS Paint Sonic Inflation Pornography “high art”.

Those are just my thoughts. I’m wary of gatekeeping artistic expression, and think “cringe” things are necessary for artistic expression to bloom. But maybe that’s just from my own experiences of learning how to draw, and making a lot of “bad” drawings in the process.

If it’s any consolation, our being upset shows that we are righteously frustrated with the gross injustice and depravity of the empire. Hold onto that, because if we lose our disgust of it, we become libs.

I would rather live a life feeling disgust, than to be comfortable in a disgusting empire.

To try to be more bloomer, there are still good things in the world. People organizing, commiserating, and Hexbear just by itself! We are not the majority, but we are still many. We enjoy things like gardening, theory, art, expression, shitposting, and so much more. I daily mourn the sins of the empire that I cannot stop. I hate being afraid to do anything out of self-preservation. But I do not have to mourn alone, and I do not have to act alone.

We can take the years where weeks happen, and use them to prepare for the week where years happen. Bit by bit, from each according to their ability, to each according to their need. There’s a lot of people in need, and like others here, I often have little ability. Still, trying with little effect is honorable over giving up. The same goes for resting, over giving up.

To paraphrase an attribution to Emma Goldman “If there won’t be shitposting at the revolution, I’m not coming”

Be the change you want to see in the world

Make the kind of world you want to live in!

Oh, the Surface Laptop Go’s are like Macbook Air clones, really nice.

Interesting! That’s very comforting actually. Like how knowing how to physically defend yourself, requires you to know how people often attack.

It’s maybe… reassuring? to realize that if somebody really wanted to track down this account, they could, but they’d have to work their asses off finding scraps of data. As long as I’m using my VPN each time (and not using an OS I consider compromised like Android or Windows) there’s not many crumbs to leave, unless they go directly for the VPN servers.

Finally, I’m still self-censoring somewhat to not be targeted. Like you said, why give them a reason to notice you? I want to be around for a long time, and I’m not too keen on inflammatory comments anyway. Why give a Fed a reason to do all that digging, when you could just blend in. Comments and posts likely to get flagged aren’t going to build communism anyway. I think my way is to work diligently and quietly, first to get myself secure, and then work outwards towards mutual aid, education, and helping in any way I can.

Maybe that’s selfish, or cowardly, but I’ve been through hard times, and I want to at least have moments of peace in between the barbarity we’re subjected to. Isn’t the whole point to work together? I’ve been burnt out on two decades of putting everything on my shoulders, and I can’t do that anymore. I deeply want to help more than I do, but I can’t light myself on fire to keep a comrade warm.

It seems you have a good friend, shame I couldn’t meet them. Somebody really should tell them that doxxing fascists is against the law and is therefore wrong.