It’s totally illogical, obviously if there’s something wrong with me I’d be better to know and get it treated, but I guess sometimes I feel like I’d prefer being in ignorant bliss of whatever happens to be killing me rather than know and have to go through a bunch of stressful shit to try and treat it. Honestly I think the anxiety of waiting is what kill me. If the doctor could just can me with a Star Trek thingy and be like “yeah you got terminal cancer” I’d probably handle it better than 5000 indeterminate tests that say I MAY have cancer.
Thankfully my doc is a nice guy. But yeah lo and behold I still got issues with hypertension and he’s not sure why since otherwise I’m seem in decent health for a guy my age.
Ugh, but now I got to get bloodwork and shit and I’m sure they’re gonna discover I have like super cancer or some shit.
Sorry wanted to vent.
Yeah I feel like everyone I know my age or older these days has hypertension. Funnily as I was leaving the office some nurse was taking another guys BP and I guess it was even higher than mine since she was asking him “are you feeling dizzy? Are you nauseous? Do you have a headache?” He was and older dude and was just like “it’s always been high lady.”
My doc is just worried cuz I’m already on meds and it’s still pretty high, but he did say some of that is white coat likely since he knows I get anxious at the doctor.
Definitely get a home blood pressure monitor (bicep cuff, not a shitty wrist cuff one). They go for $50-$80. Then you can measure consistently at home some time each day.