I wanna read more but I’m absolutely terrible at it - I have never passed philosophy homework in my life…

I’ve been recommended tons of essays and books and I’ve made the honest attempt to pick them up, the short essays if I reread a lot I eventually sort of grasp the main point, but the books always just kinda fry my brain… for reference I’ve tried “State and Revolution” and “Socialism Utopian and Scientific”, I’ve had massive issues being able to properly understand them

are there more dumbed down / simplified versions of stuff? if not has anyone ever struggled with the same thing as me? anybody has some tips? ; ; thank you in advance

PS: preferrably I would like to read from both tenets so if anyone can recommend me anarchist stuff too id really appreciate it