I love not getting a diagnosed as an adult for something I know I had my entire life
I love being treated like someone fishing for disability while struggling my whole life feeling like something was wrong with me.
why do you not get one?
Because my autism wasn’t typical of the autism most boys had. I was very good at communicating with adults and obsessively hid any behavior that people might find weird. The clinicians didn’t see how poorly I got along with my peers, which is where my autism manifested most prominently. To them I just came across as a shy kid, while at school I was often despondent and prone to crying fits.
I got sent to social programs for kids with autism when I was young, and I always felt so out of place. The kids were almost exclusively boys, and the vast majority of them didn’t mask as much as I did. I would often feel second hand embarrassment from the way they behaved, as it felt like a reflection of how I might look if I wasn’t diligent enough in trying to appear normal. It only made me even more obsessed with normalcy, and burned shame into my very soul.
From my anecdotal experience, transfems are under diagnosed for autism in a similar way to cis girls. It isn’t just that the cultural expectations of femininity allows girls more leeway to avoid socializing, girls really do express it differently.
rei, your mother was dead I dont know who raised you
You’re valid and gay :3
I raised myself :3
You don’t need to be the champion or the rebel or anyone else in-between if you don’t want to be. All I would prefer is you be kind to yourself and others.
Even though my mother broke a lot of wooden spoons on my ass & I’m a mess most days:
I like to remind myself that after several decades… she told me story (out of guilt) about her eventually stopping because I laughed & vomited on her feet.
Now who is a menopausal widow, you witch!! Lol. Love you, Mum.
If you’re not a quitter, but also not a winner then you are a loser… better be a quitter
Mama didn’t raise a quitter. Mama raised a winner boy. She only turned into a quitter, because she was a winner girl. Once that was addressed, she became the winnest of all winners.
That hits deep…
I regret to inform this variant/iteration of Rei that her mother simply didn’t appear to do much raising of any kind.
Which one of you?
