This morning he called me to get at me about bullshit stuff, he was mad at himself, really, but taking it out on me. Then he calls me an hour later that he’s going to the ER.

Thankfully I had my therapist appt. today and laid it out on her how I’m feeling. So I do feel more peace of mind now. But my dad said he’s dying and his body is shutting down. idk how much of this is true but I guess we will see later on today or tomorrow when I get an update.

And I was cursing him out this morning and hoping he’d die for how shit he treated me, and now 🙃