Even though the roots of the word seem to stem from transphobic culture and pseudoscience, it was nice to be able to verbalize and better conceptualize the specific emotions that I had been feeling ever since I realized that my long suffering may have been caused by gender dysphoria: I could finally, for the first time in my life, feel a slight… Tingling? Infatuation? Just by imagining, envisioning, that someday I will attain a female body makes me feel lighter inside. I don’t have to hate myself, my body, my gender expressions. And, on top of all this newly found freedom, I feel sexually viable. As a potential partner to others, as somebody that people can actually desire. It’s an effect of the euphoria, of the realization that I can be something, or someone, else than what this ciscentric society has forced upon me.
Just venting thoughts and feelings that I cannot vent anywhere else. No need to reply! ☺️
Julia Serano wrote about how “autogynephilia” has a really strong connection to Ray Blanchard’s incomplete, kinda transphobic, misogynistic theory. So if you read it by its dictionary definition, using that word immediately invokes something which we have disproved. However, if you read “autogynephilia” just by it’s roots and construct its definition just from its spelling without giving a thought to Blanchard, you get something like “Female/Feminine Embodiment Fantasies” which describes real feelings that some transfem people have, and those feelings are valid!