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I think talking first about the pros of people you want protected, then talking about the actual threat to them and every last one of us, was the right move.


Scarcity minidset has me reeling with panic about shopping. It’s a form of expecting bills. I heard buying from OEMs is a great way to shop, but I have no instructions. Trying to figure it out is mentally and emotionally taxing.
Edit: I have stopped trying to learn. Someone please answer the question about OEMs in my last post before I start crying.(Kidding, but not totally kidding.) 


Just saw a video on current trends of Chinese beauty standards where women were asked to rate themselves from 1 to 10. Which is a completely unreal way to say how attractive you are. It only says how confident you are or how confident you’d feel if you looked like someone else. This video is partially slop.
Also, this woman has probably been shamed for having skin that’s tinted at all.



Are there any eras of beauty standards in China where it was considered attractive to have darker skin or be fat? Are there popular Chinese beauty idols showing either of those things?
I don’t quite understand Chinese beauty standards because the pale skin thing doesn’t seem to have a connection to white colonialism. Sure it was a signifier that you weren’t a farmer and could stay inside all day, but people aren’t blind to the fact that dark skin is also attractive.
And at some point in the past, at times of hunger during feudalism that could fall on both poor and rich families, long spans of hunger should’ve made fat women seem more desirable, right? I feel like these trends should change over time, but from what I’ve been learning, thin and pale with slender jawlines has been the mainstream beauty standard in China for a long time.


Haha see? If it is colorblindness i think that’s cute. I think I heard some people see less red tones than others because during evolution we were conditioned with different levels of ability to see redness in fruit. Indicating a sign of a sugary boost and ripeness in things like red berries.
FYI you might already know this, but you can get a colorblindness check if you’re curious enough.


Even though I don’t research it, I have a fascination with ways people are colorblind. It’s less about knowing why they are. It’s more about me finding it endearing that they’d see a multiple colors from a packet of candy differently than me.
Unfortunately a colorblind person once harmed and traumatized me, and they’re the only colorblind person I’ve met. Seeing what colorblind vision looks like online makes me love how interesting colorblindness is… But then I remember the person who harmed me.
I wish I’d just meet a cool new colorblind person because it’d help me reclaim it. How else can I reclaim my fascination and endearment for colorblindness without yet meeting a new colorblind person?


Can you get a peephole installed on your front door to see who’s outside? It’s kind of dangerous that you must crack your door just to see who’s there.


I noticed while visiting Taiwan that there were a few repeatedly shown tantrums on fictional TV trailers. (Actors shaking body while bouncing up and down while yelling. One person fake-slapped another in the face during it.)
And this bothered me about the TV there for a long time. I cringed because I’ve known people in real life who covertly abuse people like this, who try to hide these behaviors and polish up their act while in the public eye. I felt it was normalizing those behaviors.
But today I find myself glad they show behaviors of covert abusers on TV. Although it’s triggering, I can see how it’s cathartic and can lead to productive conversations about how someone has hurt you. Often times American film trailers try to seem profound and epic, and it seems to lend a noble air to scenes of outbursts that are sandwiched in between. While I was in Taiwan these TV trailers didn’t try to surround them with glossy scenes and brilliant acting. They simply were people playing characters that looked like they were doing actual outbursts.
Is this average Chinese TV for the masses, or is this mostly just Taiwan? Because I know Taiwan has a LOT more trauma with the White Terror, and it only makes sense that they’d need more cathartic TV.


How is anyone rich enough to be familiar with every popular nightclub in certain American mega cities, like New York and Los Angeles? How are expensive nightclubs in the US popular in the first place when it seems like the majority of people are too broke to eat out?


Sometimes I pass a town where the only nice looking things are car dealerships and a giant resort-sized casino. Everything else there has a sad look to it. There doesn’t seem to be anything fun to do there, so of course that means heightened risk of people visiting the casino a lot. I hope I never have to stop in it.


Why did the flu not require face masks, but covid did? Why do more people wear face masks for covid than they originally did for the flu? Before covid, I don’t think I’ve noticed face masks in public in the US.
And why is there long covid but no label for “long-flu”?
Edit: Wait they did wear masks, as depicted in around 1918. It was correctly called influenza. 


While I’m trying to draw a coherent picture of each, maybe footage of them and their countries could help. I think there’s vastly different kinds of weather. I know Russia can be snowy and Cuba is very hot. Appearance of common plants, animals, architecture, and machines could look different in each country too as we look at them during each leader’s time. Those all could relate back to the needs of people which needed to be met.


When I picture things in my head, I keep thinking Stalin and Fidel Castro are the same person, and Soviet Russia and Cuba are the same country. How do I seperate these people and places in my mind?
If you can’t tell, I really don’t know much history and could use little bits of info at a time to build more distinct pictures of these two men and countries. If I am to be honest, I’m scared of reading the terrible struggles forced upon them and their people. It makes me very sad, but I will try to at least check a few small things out. I might be too depressed to read almost anything, but I figure there’s got to be something for me out there. It’d be nice if I got the fun/happy facts as well as the sad ones.


Or it’s flavored with the oil extracted from fruits or something


believe in the good tenants
Is this religion-related? I’m spiritual but not religious, and I wouldn’t know.


imo that’s a lot darker than just bad spray tan, has she acknowledged it since?
If she has I haven’t heard of it.
I lived with a white Tibetan Bhuddist for a while. They were constantly dehumanizing people around them, but then would do things like boast how Tibetans pray in simple shacks while Bhuddists in China have beautiful ornate temples. This was in response to me just having a video of a Bhuddist temple in China up on a TV. Someone told me she had a lot of anti-Chinese takes so this didn’t sit with me well.
I didn’t say any of this, but looking back: Like really, you’re going to try to look humble by claiming you have anything to do with something humble? Also, what if the Dalai Lama had instead shared his wealth? What if they mostly worshipped in simple shacks because wealth was withheld from them? And what about the Tibetan Bhuddists who want to worship differently in a way that requires more resources and a highly artistic and ornate temple? People don’t need to be poor, there’s just the existence of capital, and capital has the tendency to collect more than spread.


I think that’s just a bad fake tan because she was often orange in her early career, but I can see why someone would wonder if it was blackface.
She’s a Zionist. And believes in the Tibet Myth of “Friendly Feudalism”. She’s banned from China after promoting Dalai Lama’s image.
Btw, there’s a video of Dalai Lama having a child suck on his tongue. I think she stopped associating her image with his after that, but I haven’t heard her speak against him over it.


Ugh why does Lady Gaga have to believe in race conspiracies? She’d be so much cooler if she didn’t. It’s harder to like celebrities when them meaning well equals racism.
Is the liquid acetone?
When I look up plastic concrete I see people shredding plastic, mixing it with concrete in brick molds, and using them for building.