I get a mix of deeply bad and highly good feelings from it.
Another problem is it also makes me manic and want to be a superhero, but I have lower than average normal-person powers without any spoons to spare. I need help understanding that nothing bad is happening to me if I read or watch theory, and that I can indeed respond to what I read by simply sitting in a more educated space of mind without physically doing anything. (Again, no spoons, can’t volunteer or anything it’s frustrating.)
If you’re worried about the feds putting you on a watchlist, if they maintain them that extensively, you’re almost certainly already on one for being on this site, and it’s out of your power to change that now. Engaging in political-economic study is not going to put you on a worse list.