Thank you, comrade. I’m getting over it at my own pace. I’ve heard this advice that’s like “you should consider making a family” and it’s like “oh yeah, I’ll just shower, dress up, and take the metro to the partner factory and pick up one of their new models”. I even got a match with a person who had all their ducks in a row and froze like “I can’t fucking do this”. It’s straight up a no go for me right now. I don’t have the bandwidth to have someone close and intimate with me, to come home and need to listen and be there for them. To learn about them and hope they like me. Not to mention the craterous impacts that my exes left on my mental model for what a relationship looks like - “are you just saying that because it’s convenient for you?” type shit.